If you are a person who thinks doctors know everything and can do no wrong, don’t bother reading this, because as much as I respect the medical profession, and the amazing things that it can do, just like everything else in the world, there are flaws.
Why? Well, there are a lot of reasons.
I feel like my doctors have forgotten that my uterus was made to birth a baby. Like I’m somehow incompetent and wouldn’t be able to do any of this without them.
When I bring up the possibility of not being induced, they act like I’m suggesting murdering my unborn child.
I tracked my periods for over 2 years. That’s a long time. When I made my first appointment, I thought I was 7 weeks along, but the doctor said that the ultrasound was showing me as only 5 weeks.
A 2 week difference. (By the way, ultrasound dating, even that early, has a 7 day margin of error.)
Now the doctor is measuring my fundus, and saying that I am measuring two weeks too big. Of course, if my original calculations were correct, then my fundus is right where it should be.
By the way… I want to know how my weight (ya know… all that fat on my stomach… that is included in that measurement of my fundus) is considered when taking the measurement.
I am also exceptionally frustrated with this whole Gestational Diabetes.
Despite the fact that my test results were barely enough to get me diagnosed, and despite the fact that I have not gained more than 10 pounds this ENTIRE TIME (which, according the many resources is less than the average weight that women gain ONLY from blood volume, uterus size, and breast increases… that doesn’t account for any baby).
Also, fundus measuring has a margin of error of 2 centimeters. The doctor said that I am measuring two centimeters too big. I am questioning the accuracy of this. I feel like it was more a way of her trying to manipulate me. Because… ya know, if the baby is measuring too big then of course I will need to be induced.
I do not want to be induced unless it is absolutely necessary. Several times I have said “If my numbers and my weight and heart and everything are looking good when I get to 38 weeks, I really want to wait until I start labor on my own.” And that’s when they pull out things like my uterus is too big for my date, or telling me my blood pressure is too high. I asked the nurse to take it again with a bigger cuff, and the number came back perfectly fine.
Now I have been referred to a perinatologist. Ya know, because I’m so high risk.
Again… my blood glucose numbers are perfect. My weight is perfect (considering where I started). My uterus is “2 cm too big”… but I’m not putting too much stalk in that. My “due date” is July 14, but I’m not putting too much stalk in that either.
So now I am going to have a perinatology appointment every week until I give birth, which will include an ultrasound. These are on top of my regular bi-weekly OBGYN appointments.
In co-pays alone that is an addition $350. That doesn’t include the cost of ultrasounds that my insurance won’t cover.
Oh yeah… and my doctors’ office has made us “pre-pay” for the birth. So we’ve paid $600, ahead of time, but this money hasn’t been reported to our insurance, so even though that amount would put us over our out-of-pocket max (meaning everything would be covered at 100%), we are still paying for things because my insurance doesn’t know we’ve paid it.
Is this too long? Here’s the short version.
Due dates, fundus measurements, and even dating pregnancies with ultrasound are not exact sciences, and yet I am being charged out the wazoo and manipulated into things that are not necessary because of these measurements.
And I’m getting fed-up. I kind of want to see if I can wiggle it down to one appointment a week, unless my numbers, weight, or measurements start to turn south. At that point I would be a little more amicable to to these things. I think that alternating weeks between the Perinatologist and my OB should be enough, considering how not high-risk my actual statistics are.
Also… I kind of just want to go cry myself to sleep. The hospital/doctor stuff is causing me severe anxiety.