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People keep asking me if my baby sleeps through the night.

Apparently people don’t know that newborn babies have to eat every few hours, essentially making this “sleep through the night” thing all but impossible. lol.

Some times I just want to sit on the couch and hold her on my chest and watch her dreamy little smiles flutter across her face. I know this stage won’t last forever and I want to take advantage of it.

I haven’t been grocery shopping since before Ginny was born. Partially because I don’t feel like cooking, so buying food is a bit depressing because really I just want to buy the big box of hot pockets and then go back to snuggling my baby.

This overwhelming desire to snuggle can also explain why I haven’t blogged much. lol. I’ll figure this out soon enough.

Breastfeeding is one of the most emotionally challenging things I have ever done. I’ve read about how some Mom’s find breasfeeding enjoyable, and they feel super connected to their baby and knowing how dependent the baby is makes them love the baby even more.

While I want to breastfeed because I know that there are a lot of advantages to it, I find it very emotionally and physically taxing. Ginny is kind of a slow eater so I spend a lot of time just sitting waiting for her to eat enough. I can’t do very much with just one hand. It also makes socializing awkward. I end up sitting in a room by myself a lot while company, or people we visit, are in some other room. I don’t really have a problem with having people around me when I feed her, but I think other people find it awkward.

Any who, I’m going to write more indepth about my BFign experience thus far, but not right now. Right now I am going to remove my sleeping baby from me, and then go make some dinner.

I haven’t read blogs in like… a week… so leave me a message if anything big/important has happened! I feel so out of the loop and disconnected from every one! 🙁

Continue the fun!

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5 Comments

  1. New for us: pre-eclampsia is amiss and twice a week 2-hour appointments until he is here. Hopefully everything with our home is complete before he gets here! (But, we're pushing the wire!)

    Do you think there is a lactation consultant you can meet with in your area to help with the issues?

    1. I hope the rest of your pregnancy goes as smoothly as possible! And good luck with getting everything ready. I've been living here for like… 7 months… and I'm still trying to get things in order.

      I don't think a lactation consultant is going to make me love giving up hours of my day. It's just not the kind of person I am. I am breastfeeding because it is good for Ginny and free and offers Ginny all sorts of benefits, but that doesn't change the way other people react to me whipping out my boob when my baby is hungry, or change the way it feels to not be able to get as much done as I could if I just gave her a bottle (or if my husband gave her a bottle!). Time is a precious commodity, and it is hard to give-up.

  2. She will get faster! 🙂 They are so sleepy at that age so it takes awhile. Enjoy the excuse to rest while your body is recovering.

    When my kids got older, maybe two months (?), I put them on time restrictions. The first time was because I had to go back to work and I planned to nurse on my 24 minute lunch break (after that I did it so the older kids had mom time too). I would allow 10 minutes per side, then the feeding was over. It upped the frequency of feedings for a little bit, but then I started spacing the feedings out to 3 hours (from start to start). It made life a little more predictable and also made it easier to plan my days.

  3. "does she sleep through the night?" What a ridiculous question! I'm surprised people ask you that – I mean she's a newborn. So even though she can't sleep through the night, there are lots of other delightful newborn-y things you get. Like the cuddling. And the mewling noises.

    She will get faster at feeding, though. And I think you should nurse her whenever you like, other people be damned. Especially in your own house. Throw on a blanket if you want, but if not who cares? If the answer is people visiting you, then they can take this opportunity to get enlightened. Feeling isolated is one of the things that leads mother's to quit nursing sooner than they might otherwise have done. So don't worry about people having some kind of prudish reaction. Because you can and should have access to your community and social opportunities during this emotionally and physically challenging and oh so exciting time. You are entitled to that.

    1. I agree with Danielle! If they are over there to visit you, but they are uncomfortable enough that you have to go in another room… they're not really getting that much visiting in, if that's why they came. It just seems like it's defeating the purpose of their visit if they want to visit a new mom who breastfeeds, but they're uncomfortable with the breastfeeding. I remember my cousin going in another room to breastfeed, and I wasn't sure if *she* was embarrassed, or is she thought we were, so I didn't want to say "oh, no worries, I don't care, it's natural!" and have her say "oh, um… actually I'm really uncomfortable breastfeeding in front of other people". I think people just don't know how to act around breastfeeding because we just don't have that kind of culture in America. In other countries, it's just what people do, and it's more relaxed. Sorry it's a bit awkward for you right now!

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