I did a lot of research after my first glucose screening. One could say I “freaked out”. But I compiled it all into a list of questions and information I had found through all reputable, trustworthy websites/books. Information about the validity of the glucose testing being used, the other things in my life that could cause high glucose levels, and my worries about being “labelled”.
Then as B-man and I are sitting in the waiting room, I ask him “So, do you want to see my questions for the doctor?”
I usually go in with a list because of the severe anxiety that builds up when I am in the doctor’s office.
My husband reads my well prepared questions (all about testing and gestational diabetes) and he says “Looks like you’re in denial.”
At which point I started crying and the rest of the appointment was a bust. I didn’t get to ask any of my questions, I didn’t get to explain why I didn’t want to do the 3-hour test. I just sat there and cried while the doctor explained why they do glucose testing and blah blah blah.
I’m really mad at myself because I just shut down. I didn’t even give the doctor my paper and or ask any of my questions.
Needless to say, my heart-rate was a little high. I have to go back next week and take the 3-hour test before next Friday.
So yah. I’m stressed, and pissed. Maybe I’ll just go back to bed and pretend nothing every happened.