I have an addictive personality. I guess you could say I’m an “all or nothing” type person. This applies to a lot of aspects of my life. Music – for example – is the easiest to explain. When I find a song I like I tend to listen to it over and over and over again, until I don’t like it any more. This can take weeks, or months, even years. Usually they are songs that fit into my life well, and match my mood and the things going on in my life.
This also applies to food, and games, and people. When I find something that I like I would rather have that thing, or nothing at all. Macaroni and cheese, or spaghetti? If I can’t have the first, I don’t want the second. Not because I don’t like spaghetti, but because I really like mac’n’cheese. B-man’s too busy to hang out? I’m more likely to stay home by myself than I am to go hang out with some one else. Once B-man showed me this mouse game online… and I was REALLY into it. I played it all the time. He really enjoyed the game for a while, but he tends to mix things up, not too much of one thing. I on the other hand continued playing the mouse game until I was a bazillion times better at it than he was. Then I quit.
I wouldn’t say that this is a good character trait – but it is something I know about myself. Since realizing this it has been easier for me to “fix” things before they get out of hand. This can be a very unhealthy thing at times (like the time I actually was addicted to Vault, the soda. That was bad.), but B-man has helped me become a more balanced person. I guess we all have our character flaws.
One of mine is that I like something a little bit too much.
I once read that addiction is partially genetic. Some people are more likely to have problems with addiction than others. I do have several extended family members who have struggled with various addiction problems, and knowing my own ability to become completely obsessed with silly things like macaroni and cheese – I think I would believe it.
So am I alone in this one? Have you been able to recognize flaws in your own personality and fix/work on them?